For almost 3 years now, my mom has been fighting lung cancer. They caught it pretty early back in the summer of 2007 (will never forget it because I was in Atlanta when I found out). It went into remission and after about a year, it came back. This time with a vengeance.
My mom and I have always been really close. I have heard that this is very odd for a girl to be as close as I am with my mother….but that it how it is. Or was. Seems like the longer we go without remission, the more my mother pulls away from me. We used to talk every day up until the beginning of this year. Now days go by without real conversation. I call her and she doesn’t want to talk. She NEVER calls me. My has me working all sorts of crazy shifts, so time goes by before I can see her. When I do, she seems uninterested. It makes me sad to think that I might lose her because she keeps talking about how the chemo just makes her really tired. It may sound very selfish of me, but I need her to be here. I haven’t gotten married or had my first child. I pray about it a lot. But I don’t want to miss my mom…..