Just An Update!!!

Hey there you guys!! It’s been a minute since I’ve posted and I haven’t updated on anything from the past couple weeks. So here are the updates.

1. I got the tests back fro, the amniocentesis that I had to get this morning. So far I am having a healthy baby boy…..who is a little on the small side. My test results came back abnormal for spinal defects but I am happy to report that there are no spinal defects, no chromosomal abnormalities…..nothing. The only thing that is a concern is that he is about 2 to 3 weeks behind in development size. This probably has everything to do with my high blood pressure. i am taking steps to take better care of myself to let little man have some growing room.

2. I MOVED!!!!! Boo Thang and I are no longer living with his mother and are currently getting settled into out new townhouse. I am so thankful for all the blessings that have been given to me over the past couple of months. It was past time for us to strike out on our own again and get back to the business of…..us

That’s the long and short of it!!

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Week 18: Off To A Rocky Start

I am 18 weeks along in my pregnancy, 22 weeks to go……whoo hoo!

At my last appointment, I had a blood pressure screening. My blood pressure was reading too high (155/95), too many times in a row for my doctor’s liking…..so she put me on blood pressure meds. (Eek!) It’s back down to a normal range, thank God. The last thing I want are any complications. I really need to get my health together. I’m really to young to be on blood pressure meds. I want to be around as long as possible for my baby.

At this same appointment, I took the AFP screening for birth defects. I always said I wanted this test….and that notion is good only in theory. After playing phone tag with my doctor all day Tuesday, I learned that the test came back abnormal. I think I cried 2 whole hours after that. I kept (….well I still do) keep thinking what did I do wrong. I did keep forgetting to take prenatal vitamins. My diet is RANDOM…I see food and eat it. The main reason I wanted the test in the first place is because autism and what is probably undiagnosed Downs run on my dad’s side of the family. Now I’m terrified. Then I got on the internet……

…..and realized abnormal means nothing til I know the details. I have my anatomy scan (finally find out pink or blue!) next week, then an appointment with a fetal medicine and genetic specialist (praises go up for great insurance). So please keep me in your prayers. Hopefully I won’t have a nervous breakdown between now and then.

Worries and Fears

As exciting as being pregnant is, there are so many things that I’m deathly afraid of. I don’t think I’ve been this nervous in life……and I thought I’d done some pretty important things beforehand. Nope. Not really. So here are my fears…..in no particular order. 1. What if something happens to the baby?! Now this might be an irrational fear, but I am afraid of not carrying this baby to term. Every tweak or twinge scares the beejeezus out of me sometimes. 2. What in the world have I gotten myself into? I’ve prided myself on being 28 with no kids by choice. Am I really ready? 3. Am I going to be a good parent? 4. How in the world am I gonna do this without my mama? This one stays in the back of my mind. She was my rock and better half LOL. I’m really hoping that she’s gearing up for some ghost appearances….I need her. *sighs* 5. Is my relationship going to change? 6. I still have so many things to do in life….can I still get these things done? These things and more have me sleeping like 30 minutes at a time at night. Did anyone else have similar fears with their first child?

Welcome Back & The Announcement!

I know that my posting hasn’t been worth ish. Access to internet is limited and to be perfectly honest…..sometimes after working on a computer for 8+ hours a day, I really don’t feel like getting on one at home. But I am back and will be posting more regularly. So on to the announcement…..

I am 12 weeks pregnant!!!! It was a shock to both Jay and I, but why it was such a shock is beyond me lol. I’ve been off birth control for health reasons since October 2011. The rhythm method was working so well that I think we forgot that that mess wasn’t foolproof. So I’m going to be a mommy! My first thought was “Noooo…..I’m too young!!!” Then I realized that I am going to turn 29 in August. I’m really running out of time to have pregnancies that aren’t high risk ones. When I saw that positive Clear Blue Easy, I really just panicked. No other way to say it. I always try to schedule things where they go into their perfect place. Kids was supposed to come only after the career get on track and most importantly after marriage. Welp! Change in plans. Every day that passes, the more excited I become about bringing life into the world. The great part about it is that I have a loving partner that will be there every step of the way! So let’s have a drink to me (well y’all drink and I’ll watch). This blog will turn into a journal of my pregnancy with posts, rants, random commentary and pictures throughout the way!!