Most people wait until the tail end of the year in order to make lists and goals for themselves to make themselves better. I, however, need a life list. I need a short term list of REAL achievable goals that would make my life flow smoother and make me a better person. I need to start on them right now because there is no time like the present.
I feel like I have lost a portion of myself along the way. I would be lying if I said I didn’t know what happened. I know EXACTLY what happened. I can trace my lost feelings all the way back to September 2008. It was compounded in April 2009 and further thrown out the window in April 2011. These were the 3 times that I found out I failed the Mississippi Bar exam. As much as I have tried to create an identity for myself that doesn’t include having gone to law school, I realize that I’m existing way under my station. I’m lost. I’ve gotten caught in the working to make a living rat race that just 6 short years ago I always wanted to avoid. I don’t know who I am. I don’t know what I want to do. I just know it isn’t this. I guess that really is the first step to breaking a rut. Knowing that this really is not it.
I want to get my passion for life life back. I want to not feel so jaded all the time. I want to smile and laugh and the possibility of something new and positive. It starts with me and my mindset. It starts today.